Dear Carolyn,
You are amazing. Many don't get your Wayseer nature;
but rest assured ...
The Wayseer experience is no more than this:
A heroic soul born inhumanely open
desperately yearning to express their truth.
To you ... a touch is a blow, a slight is a persecution,
a connection is an ecstasy, a friend is a devotion, a daydream is a
premonition, strictness is suffocation, and completion is death.
Add to your brutally sensitive soul the overwhelming need to
create, express, heal and transform -- so that without the outpouring
of honest truth, the creating of music or poetry or something of
meaning your very breath is cut off ...
You must create or disrupt - you must pour out your entire being
in each and every encounter. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency
you never feel truly alive unless you are risking everything to
express a dangerous truth you know inside.
Thank you for having the courage to create...
to transform...
to be yourself unapologetically.
For without your courage the world darkens
and suffers the absence of your light
and the rest of us Wayseers who are like you
would not have your courageous acts to lift us
and inspire our own.
Rise up,
Garret John LoPorto
This resonates with me, but only to a point. You see, I understand that rebellion can lead to very extreme results in a persons life! I love the creativity & free-spirit, but in my mind, only if they are bridled by submission to God who is the author & finisher of the creative spirit in all of us! An untamed, unbridled horse is of no use to anyone for any good purpose. If he will not submit to your lead, to your training which makes him a 'good horse', then what the heck? Same with a good soldier! If he will not subject himself to the disciplines of his regiment, he is not gonna make it in combat or any other situation.
So with that in mind, I have learned that there are 'parentheses' which rightfully belong in my "Free Spirit". They are not a burden, but rather are healthy limits & boundaries for my behaviors & expressions. They keep us out of prison! This is the paradox of freedom! By subjecting myself to the rules, regulations, norms for me, I have tremendous freedom to be who I am in Christ. Afterall, it is His Holy Spirit that is the spark of divine energy.
***This I know!
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